I am sitting in my living room with my Springer Spaniel (Charlotte)...dreading returning to work tomorrow. Its been 3 days since my surgery and I cannot seem to snap out of this funk I am in...
The surgery itself was fine...no problems really....for those who may not have read my previous post....I had a hysteroscopy, polypectomy and D & C this past Friday. All went well...my major issues with surgery is always the anesthesia. It makes me sick....makes me cloudy for days and is just uncomfortable.
I will be starting Clomid within the next few weeks. I am excited and scared all at the same time. I am glad that I am taking control and starting to look in to alternative methods to try to help me get pregnant...but, also I am scared to death. What if it doesn't work? I have been trying for so long that the thought of continued failure scares me. I want to be a mother so badly. I wish and pray and hope.....and all I want is the opportunity to be a mother to someone. My husband would be an amazing father and I want for him to have that chance as well.
I know I am rambling on and on....do any of you feel the same way?
Monday, March 21, 2011
HSG
I know I skipped ahead to my surgery this past week...but I wanted to touch on my thoughts on the HSG. I know before each of these procedures I was googling and reading all that I could on the procedure itself and the pain I should expect.
As far as the HSG goes....I agree with what most of the posts I have read say....I think your experience is determined by who is performing the procedure. I had my HSG done in a hospital by a Radiologist. So without the technical terms I will basically tell you what is involved. You go into a room much like a Doctor's office. You take everything off from the waist down....you lie back...and for me...I basically bent my knees and held myself up on the table. They use a speculum much like the one used during a pap test, except way bigger....then they insert a catheter through the vagina and into the uterus. Now comes the fun part....a contrast dye is put through the catheter and flows through the uterus and fallopian tubes. Its used to check for abnormalities in the uterus or to see if the fallopian tubes are blocked. After the dye is injected the radiologist takes the x-rays and explains his findings to you. (which is nice to have some answers right away) So....did it hurt? Without putting the fear of God in to the readers of this blog....Yes it hurt. I have had PCOS for years and have felt that I have a pretty high tolerance of pain in the abdominal region.
With that being said....the radiologist who performed my procedure was a jerk! It would be like Urkel giving you a pelvic exam. I think he was uncomfortable from the beginning and in turn made me uncomfortable. When the dye was injected... the pain took my breath away...I made a very low moan....the Doctor then said to me....I told you it was going to hurt....Didn't I tell you it was going to hurt? Yeah... so my experience was bad mostly due to the fact that the doctor performing my procedure was uncomfortable with the female anatomy and was a man who had no sense of what it is like to be a woman! I think he felt bad cause he was a little more gentle when giving me the results. I was uncomfortable....he was uncomfortable...and you could tell the tech who was in there assisting him, didn't care for HIM either.
So they found a tumor at the very opening of my uterus. That is what I had removed this week. (ended up being a polyp) I will get the pathology back at the end of this week and all should be fine. He did say "my tubes are beautiful" lol so there were no blockages. My doctor called the next day and set up an appointment to have an SHG or Sonohysterogram, which I had done in the doctors office. I will cover that in my next post. (it will back up my claim that your experience is mostly determined by who is performing the test)
So overall the HSG...for me....hurt but was tolerable. I had some cramping for the rest of the day. I napped and took motrin. I did take some otc painkillers before hand but to be honest...it didn't make much of a difference. Please keep in mind I had an overall bad experience due to the person who was performing the test. Everyone is different and have different levels of pain tolerance. The most important thing is to have it done. I found out that there was an abnormality in my uterus that even if I were not planning on having children...needed to be taken care of as soon as possible! Please let me know if you have any questions! Thanks for reading!
As far as the HSG goes....I agree with what most of the posts I have read say....I think your experience is determined by who is performing the procedure. I had my HSG done in a hospital by a Radiologist. So without the technical terms I will basically tell you what is involved. You go into a room much like a Doctor's office. You take everything off from the waist down....you lie back...and for me...I basically bent my knees and held myself up on the table. They use a speculum much like the one used during a pap test, except way bigger....then they insert a catheter through the vagina and into the uterus. Now comes the fun part....a contrast dye is put through the catheter and flows through the uterus and fallopian tubes. Its used to check for abnormalities in the uterus or to see if the fallopian tubes are blocked. After the dye is injected the radiologist takes the x-rays and explains his findings to you. (which is nice to have some answers right away) So....did it hurt? Without putting the fear of God in to the readers of this blog....Yes it hurt. I have had PCOS for years and have felt that I have a pretty high tolerance of pain in the abdominal region.
With that being said....the radiologist who performed my procedure was a jerk! It would be like Urkel giving you a pelvic exam. I think he was uncomfortable from the beginning and in turn made me uncomfortable. When the dye was injected... the pain took my breath away...I made a very low moan....the Doctor then said to me....I told you it was going to hurt....Didn't I tell you it was going to hurt? Yeah... so my experience was bad mostly due to the fact that the doctor performing my procedure was uncomfortable with the female anatomy and was a man who had no sense of what it is like to be a woman! I think he felt bad cause he was a little more gentle when giving me the results. I was uncomfortable....he was uncomfortable...and you could tell the tech who was in there assisting him, didn't care for HIM either.
So they found a tumor at the very opening of my uterus. That is what I had removed this week. (ended up being a polyp) I will get the pathology back at the end of this week and all should be fine. He did say "my tubes are beautiful" lol so there were no blockages. My doctor called the next day and set up an appointment to have an SHG or Sonohysterogram, which I had done in the doctors office. I will cover that in my next post. (it will back up my claim that your experience is mostly determined by who is performing the test)
So overall the HSG...for me....hurt but was tolerable. I had some cramping for the rest of the day. I napped and took motrin. I did take some otc painkillers before hand but to be honest...it didn't make much of a difference. Please keep in mind I had an overall bad experience due to the person who was performing the test. Everyone is different and have different levels of pain tolerance. The most important thing is to have it done. I found out that there was an abnormality in my uterus that even if I were not planning on having children...needed to be taken care of as soon as possible! Please let me know if you have any questions! Thanks for reading!
D&C, Polypectomy...hysteroscopy
Ok.....So I am currently post op day 3. I went in Friday Am to have a tumor removed from my uterus. Turned out to be a polyp. The worst part was the sore throat from the breathing tube. I always have a problem with anesthesia making me nauseated so that is always the worst for me. The abdominal pain wasn't all that bad...my doctor is amazing! Came in to talk to me before and after surgery. Showed me pics of the polyp before and after she removed it.
It is very possible that this growth...where it was positioned caused my egg to not drop...in turn causing my infertility. So...on we go to Clomid, which I expect to start during my next cycle. I will keep you all updated. Please let me know if you have any questions. Thanks :)
It is very possible that this growth...where it was positioned caused my egg to not drop...in turn causing my infertility. So...on we go to Clomid, which I expect to start during my next cycle. I will keep you all updated. Please let me know if you have any questions. Thanks :)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Our move....
So I am from a rural part of Southeastern, Ohio. I will be honest and say that the medical community there is a bit lacking in the way of technology. Every time I would see a doctor I always had comments like..."Your cycles are off due to stress.....or "You are young and have plenty of time to have children"....I had a mid wife tell me one time that "Its up to God when you get pregnant"...yes she said that...and I agree to an extent. Is it not up to me to find out why I can't get pregnant? Or to seek out the help of others to find out why?!?
I cannot tell you how many times I went to the ER for pain or heavy bleeding. The same thing would always happen...draw blood...not bleeding to death....call your doctor if you don't improve. So I would see the doctor and would get the ol'.....You haven't had a regular cycle ....you are bleeding heavy due to not menstruating regularly. The bleeding went on for 2 months before I had to have a D &C.. That was in November 2006.
I'll spare you the next four years of pain...changing doctors three times....and bring you to January 2011. My husband and I moved to the capital city of Columbus, Ohio. I find myself a "real doctor" and my life begins to change. Fear and hope become a daily part of my life.
I cannot tell you how many times I went to the ER for pain or heavy bleeding. The same thing would always happen...draw blood...not bleeding to death....call your doctor if you don't improve. So I would see the doctor and would get the ol'.....You haven't had a regular cycle ....you are bleeding heavy due to not menstruating regularly. The bleeding went on for 2 months before I had to have a D &C.. That was in November 2006.
I'll spare you the next four years of pain...changing doctors three times....and bring you to January 2011. My husband and I moved to the capital city of Columbus, Ohio. I find myself a "real doctor" and my life begins to change. Fear and hope become a daily part of my life.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Hi its just me...
- Hello All!
- I have decided to share with all of you out in cyberspace my journey into motherhood as I embark on this fertility journey. I hope to share this process with all of you in hopes that someone out there may benefit from my experience.
- Before we get into the dreams of babies and the reality of never ending painful testing...I thought I would share the beginning of my story with all of you....
My name is Jodi and I am 29 years old...fast approaching the dreaded BIG 3-0. I have been married to the love of my life Isaac for going on 6 years now. Children were something I always imagined in my future...when I think back on what I wanted to be when I grew up....a Mother...that was it.
What I have realized is that no one ever tells you that time really does fly and before you know it all the time you thought you had to plan dwindles and soon you are staring your biological clock right in the face. Looking back at you is the painful realization that it may be time to look into fertility testing and that the term "it will happen when the time is right"....might have been a bunch of bs right from the start.
I look forward to sharing my experiences with you and hope you will share yours with me as well.
Up next....PCOS, HSG, SHG....do the acronyms ever stop?!?
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